The term fundamentalism evokes within me something of a Make America Great Again feeling. It’s not a happy feeling — but the words themselves taken out of context are innocent. There’s nothing inherently wrong with making America great again — though that statement brings with it a steam-powered train full of questions. In a similar fashion, there’s nothing inherently wrong about focusing on fundamentals (and in this context, I’m specifically talking about the Christian religion)— in fact, there’s a lot to be said for it. …

Few people reject the teachings of Jesus Christ. It’s just those Christians acting like the worst people that muck it all, right? That’s just what we call human nature, and it turns out, you don’t need to be a Christian to be that way.

Christianity was dying. I thought it was dead. After leaving Christianity, I learned the value of death and destruction — it’s always what brings forth healing and new life.

The process is intertwined and interdependent, fundamentally connected — the healing and new life could not be catalyzed without the suffering. Without the suffering, there would not…

Each year seemed worst than last, starting perhaps…2012? That proves the Mayans were right. It wasn’t quite the end of the world — it was just the end of a time. The end of an era. The end of life as we once knew it.

I don’t even believe things necessarily are going downhill, even though I intuit it to be true in my bones. Declinism is a real phenomenon. …

Modern Work

We worry about our health, so we thank our employer for our healthcare plan. Yet, we worry less about dying than we do about getting truly sick and needing to actually deal with using that healthcare. In all this, we lack the time to think about the issue truly at hand — our own mortality. What does it all mean? What is life? What is death? Aren’t we told by those on their deathbeds that their only regret is not spending more time with those they love? Do we love our coworker that much? Surely our life means more than…

Do without trying

Study without learning

Work for no reward

Seek and do not find

Help with no goodness

Live with no recognition

Exist only in existence

This is the end striving

Too Many Problems, Too Many Feelings

I am a failure as a founder. No — I’ve gone to therapy. I know how to phrase this…I feel like a failure as a founder.

My startup was progressing, but too slowly. Everything was taking so long. Was bootstrapping the wrong choice? I’d lost my only employee, failed to get face time with investors, failed to deliver prototypes on time, and, quite frankly, had no idea what direction to take things. I’m certain there was a pathway, somewhere, but I was so deep in the funk I was unable to see a clear path. It had all come so…

One basic truth. Simple, yet elusive. You may spend your entire life pursuing it, but the more it’s pursued, the faster it slips away.

The deeper we look into the smallest of things, the more things shrink away. When a molecule is torn apart, it reveals atoms. When we fix our eyes on the atom, the universe explodes into a shower of quarks, photons, gluons, with no doubt of ever more fundamental particles and forces lurking just out of sight. We fire giant energy canons at invisible particles just for a chance at finding something smaller. …