Synthesizing the Polarities

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How shall we solve this problem, this eternal conflict? The self vs the other. The group like us and the group not-like us.

It requires a philosophy that can unite the two. A way of thinking that values the individual. A way of living that holds the needs of the other — the enemy— with reverence.

We live in a time that preaches the primacy of the needs of the individual, so much so that we begin to confuse wants with needs and opinion with facts. …


Learning from Death

The grief is fresh. It washes over me in waves. I’ve already tried to distract myself, but can’t — and shouldn’t. The cycles of grief are cyclical, and move between sheer pain and a nostalgic laughter. When it’s fresh, it happens faster and swings higher.

I feel completely silent. Almost unable to speak. There is so much in my mind. There is so much I have experienced. A year has passed where nothing has happened (all while so much happened — what gives?). A day has passed that contained years.

I didn’t know when I woke up. I knew it was today, but I didn’t know what would happen. I couldn’t know. I just knew I was ready for whatever today was.

Two weeks ago or so, Meghan had called calmly — with a very suspicious calm for a known panick-er — that something had…


Eight Billion Experiments

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We learn by doing. We do things, almost at random, until we find something interesting. When we find something interesting, we increase our focus on it until it seems chaotic. When the chaos reveals order within itself, we move to the next level. We learn more. Our skills improve. It’s natural and intuitive. A child has no purpose in their experimentation — it’s for the sheer joy and excitement of learning.

It’s evolution. It’s life. It finds a way. It doesn’t have biases. It finds biases. It doesn’t follow trends. It sets the trends.

We are limited in the number…


Re-redefining Fundamentalism

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The term fundamentalism evokes within me something of a Make America Great Again feeling. It’s not a happy feeling — but the words themselves taken out of context are innocent. There’s nothing inherently wrong with making America great again — though that statement brings with it a steam-powered train full of questions. In a similar fashion, there’s nothing inherently wrong about focusing on fundamentals (and in this context, I’m specifically talking about the Christian religion)— in fact, there’s a lot to be said for it. …


Rooting Out Christian Nationalism

Few people reject the teachings of Jesus Christ. It’s just those Christians acting like the worst people that muck it all, right? That’s just what we call human nature, and it turns out, you don’t need to be a Christian to be that way.

A picture from one of my darkest times

Christianity was dying. I thought it was dead. After leaving Christianity, I learned the value of death and destruction — it’s always what brings forth healing and new life.

The process is intertwined and interdependent, fundamentally connected — the healing and new life could not be catalyzed without the suffering. Without the suffering, there would not…


Each year seemed worst than last, starting perhaps…2012? That proves the Mayans were right. It wasn’t quite the end of the world — it was just the end of a time. The end of an era. The end of life as we once knew it.

I don’t even believe things necessarily are going downhill, even though I intuit it to be true in my bones. Declinism is a real phenomenon. …


A Lament for Labor, Trapped in a Web

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Modern Work

We worry about our health, so we thank our employer for our healthcare plan. Yet, we worry less about dying than we do about getting truly sick and needing to actually deal with using that healthcare. In all this, we lack the time to think about the issue truly at hand — our own mortality. What does it all mean? What is life? What is death? Aren’t we told by those on their deathbeds that their only regret is not spending more time with those they love? Do we love our coworker that much? Surely our life means more than…


Do without trying

Study without learning

Work for no reward

Seek and do not find

Help with no goodness

Live with no recognition

Exist only in existence

This is the end striving


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Too Many Problems, Too Many Feelings

I am a failure as a founder. No — I’ve gone to therapy. I know how to phrase this…I feel like a failure as a founder.

My startup was progressing, but too slowly. Everything was taking so long. Was bootstrapping the wrong choice? I’d lost my only employee, failed to get face time with investors, failed to deliver prototypes on time, and, quite frankly, had no idea what direction to take things. I’m certain there was a pathway, somewhere, but I was so deep in the funk I was unable to see a clear path. It had all come so…

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